depressing depression

Don't you just hate it when bloggers post the lyrics of a song because for some vague reason they are under the ridiculous impression that those lyrics reflects their present state of mind or worse that the song really was written for them or about them. I hate it, i positively hate it. Below are the lyrics of Coldplays's "I will try to fix you". I am for some vague reason under the ridiculous impression that these lyrics reflect my present state of mind or worse that the song really was written for me or about me.

May be i should see my therapist...if only i had one

When you try your best but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need
When you feel so tired but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
When you love someone but it goes to waste
COULD IT BE WORSE?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you
And high up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go
But if you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

ohmigod! I'm back!!!!

All of you guys cheer up for the nearly semestrial anniversary of my silence!! Yay!!!! No more rants, no more silly comments, No nothing!!! and that lasted all of six months ou presque...

So you were beginning to think you were rid of me. Not quite. Of course after such a long silence I expect I'm kind of rid of you, that is you've certainly stopped trying. I deserve it. It's too bad really. But now that I'm finding some sort of balance in my new life, I think i'll be back to blogging. Of course you cannot seriously expect two posts a day. you'll have to settle for one or two a week. And in English only. I don't have time to do both languages and all my friends speak perfect English. If you read this and don't speak perfect English then you can draw your own conclusions. (By now you should be counting the spelling and grammatical mistakes in this post). No, what i really mean is it makes it a bit easier for me.

Ok so what happened in the last six months you'll ask??

In the last six months i have moved from sunny (homey) Marseille to (not all that sunny) Paris, started working (way way too much) for a huge international law firm (aka the evil empire of greyness and boredom), seen "the man I love", walked down the Rue de Rivoli draped only in a very transparent rainbow flag (one vision that's imprinted forever in the mind of any person who had the misfortune to cross my path that day...for this people my deepest deepest apologies), very recently psychologically gotten rid of "the man I love" (at least temporarily because distance and life just makes it too complicated to think of him so i've decided i don't love him and i think he doesn't even like me anyway), eaten the best pizza ever and also the worst, tried every sort of physical expression with a large range of (young and old) disposable boys, been through a phase of near zen purity (meaning that for a full week i had freshly squeezed orange juice after intercourse instead of the usual Scotch,....aren't I the Dalai Lama now????), gone through an infamous Disco Queen phase (very much like a slutty phase but for the outfit of white pants and tight t-shirts...I hear you in the back saying the shirts are not tight it just my being obese), jumped on my office desk and sung "I am what I am" at the top of my lungs ( I can channel Shirley basset perfectly after a few hours working on competition law), eaten one too many mozzarella/tomato salad....

All the above in no particular order as you can imagine. I just want to highlight my strategy of doing things completely randomly. Things such as writing this post for example.

New and (hopefully) Improved Bhoygary.

I needed to move really. I had meant to do it for ages because nothing was working properly in my previous blog after I tried a few lethal modifications. Also some of you told me that they had difficulties to log on, or that they couldn't comment and stuff. Well all of this should be solved.

As everything is new i suggest you do suggestions. Like if some things are missing. Or if you like it. Or like Bhoygary v 1.1 better (fuck you). Or hate it (fuck you). Or hate me (fuck you).

I'll try to improve things step by step...

Vive la FRANCE

Apparently there's no english word for "borgne". I've checked every possible dictionary and all I come up with is "one-eyed" or "blind in one eye" and those are not real words. That is simply not good enough. This is evident and undisputable proof of our -as in US FRENCH- superiority. And all the billions and nuclear weapons in the world won't change that....

Apparement il n'y a pas de mots en anglais pour "borgne". J'ai regardé dans tout les dictionnaires et tout ce que je trouve c'est "one-eyed" ou "blind in one eye" et c'est même pas des vrais mots. Ca ne peut pas aller. C'est la preuve évidente et indiscutable de notre supériorité à nous les français. Et tout les milliards et armes nucléaires du monde ne peuvent rien y changer....

(This message was the last published on MSN).